Trust

Over the past year and a half, trust has been the biggest recurring theme in my life. Once I left my position as youth pastor at the church where I worked, my family has lived under what God has provided through LIFe Ministries. It's been an incredible ride and we've experientially learned how trustworthy Jesus is.

Through our first support letter, God brought in enough to get us through the first half of year 1. God continued to bring in money and we made it without much difficulty until August of that first year (2007). Ever since then, we've watched God bring in just enough each month to cover the expenses for the ministry and for us to receive our paychecks from the ministry.

I don't like to write about all of this because money is one of those subjects that can easily make people feel uncomfortable. However, I share this now because I want to share honestly the reality of the struggle in the moment of faith, as we trust God to provide once again in a way only He can.

After almost 2 years, one might think that it's gotten easy and it shouldn't be that big of a deal any more when our bank account reaches nearly the bottom. It is a bit easier, but it's far from easy. The struggle is real, and we're finding joy in the midst of it. Jesus' peace prevails over the seemingly uncertainty of tomorrow. However, we fully trust His certainty for each moment, and are able to rest in Him for that.

Right now, we are at that point again, where He will have to do something big (in our eyes) in order for us to financially make it through August. This journey is incredible. It's been and still is a great ride for us as we have learned (and are still learning) what it means to trust God in all things. He's so tender and strong, faithful and good, gracious and giving, present and unceasing. Without the struggles, not just the financial ones, I'm sure my view of God would have continued to be more theoretical than practical.

Even for a theoretical thinker, I'm so glad He's in the details and His grace is in each moment. I'll update here as we continue on this journey of trusting and learning to depend completely on Him.